Look, I really don’t want to wax philosophic, but I will say that if you’re alive, you’ve got to flap your arms and legs, you’ve got to jump around a lot, you’ve got to make a lot of noise, because life is the very opposite of death. And therefore, as I see it, if you’re quiet, you’re not living . . . you’ve got to be noisy, or at least your thoughts should be noisy and colorful and lively.
~ Mel Brooks
This is the year!
I could feel everything leading up to this year as an awakening of consciousness. Where 2013 was one of confusion and struggle, the actual process of awakening began early in 2014. With hard work–internal work–I've slowly yet steadily discovered some answers to questions long left dormant. I feel alive now, awake, and ready. I have a new career blossoming before me, that excites me and has me eager to learn more. My relationship with my life partner has matured in a way I would never have expected. Struggles and pain are apart of life. It's the way we handle them, confront them, and ask ourselves what we did, how we can be, and who do we want to be that help push us forward past these times. With everything going on in the world around us–terrible violence and inhumane responses–it's important even more right now, that we sit quietly, be still, and focus on what is, and what is inside us.
It seems silly, but when I'm obsessing, or worried, or sad, I just have to take a deep breath, go sit somewhere quiet, breathe in the fresh air, and remind myself, that nothing can change me, but myself. That what I want, only I can give me. To let go, to remain free and open. Let the good come in, and fill me with energy, and let the bad energy out to dissolve.
My only intention for this year (not resolution) is to live life, to extend my arms, jump around a lot, and to make noise; the happy kind. And in the doing, I hope to affect those around me with the same.