October 3, 2015

Gusty winds bring the Celebration of the Living and the Dead

I love October! It's chilly, windy, and brings in feelings of celebration on All Hallows Eve, carving pumpkins, decoration with skeletons, and of course, my birthday is where it all begins for me.

So begins the celebration of my 50th year. I can't really believe it to be true.  I don't feel this number, nor do I really look like what we think 50 looks like.  My birthday is NOT today, it's on Monday, but tonight I celebrate with with a few friends. I can't wait to gather around with my friends to celebrate life! Life is good!

I remember when communicating to my friend about being 50 this year, after shrugging, "ugh", she laughed and said. "Well, what's the alternative?  Death?  You should be celebrating."  Ha. I had to have a laugh at that.

I start my year– not on New Years– but on my birthday date, with goals and commitments to myself.  Some of them I started early on, to make sure I was well on the way with these commitments before I even hit the magic age of 50.  My most proud moment is laying off cigarettes... again.  I used to be a smoker over 10 years ago, when I quit. But I let stress, and anxiety bring me back to that habit, just two years ago.   Well, it just pissed me off that I did this, and in light of friends and family members going through Cancer, I told myself I was being stupid. So this past August I quit for good.  Just stopped cold turkey, and I feel great.

I've also started on a good course of Yoga and Meditation.  My meditation practice is getting stronger, and Yoga is slowly getting rooted into my weekly practice.   This is all good healthy stuff.

I have more ideas, but the most important is to get my business going.   Just settling in right now, and getting my studio set up, but when I get there, by end of this week (YES I WILL), I'll let you know!

This blog will also be taking a re-design, and focus. So wait for that.

In the meantime, I wanted to share a reading from one of my favorite Astrologer/writer's, Susan Grace.  You can find her on Facebook. More than an astrologer, more of a Spiritual Leader! I felt this to be perfect for me this last week.  The birth of the new moon was extraordinary, and really had an effect on me.  And this just sums it up. Thanks Susan.  And thanks Hannah for being so supportive and sharing!

Moon in Gemini square Jupiter in Virgo and Neptune Rx/Chiron Rx in Pisces, trine Sun in Libra, quincunx Pluto in Capricorn

Sun in Libra quincunx Neptune Rx in Pisces, square Pluto in Capricorn
Mercury Rx exacting Black Moon Lilith and Juno in Libra
North Node at zero degrees Libra sextile Saturn at 1 degree Sagittarius
Venus in 3rd decan Leo
Mars in Virgo oppose Neptune Rx in Pisces
Jupiter in Virgo trine Pluto in Capricorn

It's almost comical.
We try so hard to make everything line up.
Blind faith are involved, and
We think Let Love Rule, but also,
How do we make this exactly like we want it?
Um, we don't.
It's not going to be exactly like we want it.
It's going to be
Weird and
Awkward and
You'll say things you don't mean.
You'll stumble.
You'll serve up your heart on a silver platter.
You'll pour out forgiveness when people act like jackasses.
You'll wear your best shoes in the rain.
You'll burn the lasagna, but it's still edible.
This is Life.
It is perfect in it's imperfections.
The only thing you need to line up is
Your trust in yourself.
Don't worry so much about how Life is showing up.
It's showing up how it needs to.
It's surprising you on purpose.
It's showing you what you need to learn about
The Truth of Who You Really Are.
Be brave and
Reach for the Beauty.
You have Love in your heart -
You'll be fine.

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